I hope you are the one I share my life with
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
over.. it's over..
i know many of you thinks that it's better..
maybe it might be better or it is better.
but wad i know is that i'm hurting..
hurting so badly.
my heart is bleeding..
but no one sees that...
i'm crying but no one know.
my heart is crying out silently and painfully..
i donno wad to do or wad can i do anymore..
you're so selfish.
so so selfish and i hate this..
i'm so affected by it.. so affected by you
at this point of time i'm also so stressed out with my sch work.
projects and projects.. presentations and exams.. it never seems to stop.
but all these don seems to take my mind off you..
it don seems to take the pain away..
i don really expect anyone to understand how i feel right now..
and i don wish to affect another with how i'm feeling right now.
how i wish my pain can be lessen..
you left me at the time when i needed you most.. you're always like this..
somehow i hope you will come back to me..
but i know those problems cant be solved within a day.
and i'm tired very tired..
i'm trying my best.. and it's taking away all my energy..
i cld barely slp.. i can hardly concentrate...
tell me how tell me why
teach me how.
i guess at this point of time..
i will need to depend alot on my friends.
i will need support from my dearest..
but i wanna promise myself.. to be the clarissa i used to be..
the clarissa who had confidence...
the clarissa who's independent.
the clarissa who spends most of her time with her friends.
the clarissa who my friends and i know of b4 changing cos of him..
the clarissa who others prefer.
i donno.
i jus wanna be me again..
living for myself not jus for him.
but i cant deny i still love him.
loving him every moment.
anw. i'm gonna work at ben and jerry's.. hope this will help to keep my mind off him..
met up with adam, dom and van last week.. on fri after sch.
it was really nice..
cos i never felt so relax or open about such things b4.
it was fun.
and i jus love those times spent with them.
they never fails to make me smile..
you guys are loved!
needa end here.bye.
sealed with a kiss
5:02 PM
clarissawee.
o6o490 (:
fairsian. nanyang poly :)
I'm someone who is simply captivated by beautiful and pretty things..
Fascinated with all the sweet and wonderful things around me like chocolates and flowers..
I adore my friends and time spent with all my dearest..
I enjoy RETAIL THERAPY..
Wanting to live life to the fullest by enjoying every moment and experiencing the best..
This blog is a place where i pen down my thoughts and share about my daily lives and as time goes by it allows me to keep it as a memory.(:
